Lazy Day :)

Today has been a lazy, lazy day. Not much to report on but that the family went to get our truck inspected and found out we had to have two new tires. We just hang out together all day. Husband, son and I went to Subway today and had a delicious Roaster Turkey sub from subway sans the cheese. I never put cheese on my chicken sandwiches. It tastes really nasty to me. Whenever I go places and people as me if I would like cheese on my chicken sandwich I pretty much look at them like they have lost their minds. Does everyone think that cheese is supposed to come with every meal or that they have to eat dairy all the time? I used to really enjoy cheese but over the last year or so I have come to not want it very much. I am sure most would say I am very abnormal because of that but oh well, that is just the way I like it.

Other than the lunch and some running around today has been just flat out lazy. Food wise I did good with breakfast and lunch. I had a yummy bowl of oatmeal for breakfast with one slice of whole wheat toast and then for lunch the Subway I mentioned above. For dinner my husband ended up deciding he wanted pizza which I had two slices of. I made sure to count those calories closley since I didn't "workout" today. All in all I would say it has been a pretty good day. I hope that everyone else had a wonderful day too. :)

Who Created These Things???

Today was a pretty great workout day. I ended up burning 500 calories while working out with my personal trainer on my EA Sports Active 2 for my Wii. I got a great burn in and was sweating like crazy. If anyone has ever played the game they know that you can create a likeness of yourself to help mirror while you are working out. Yesterday, when I created my likeness I noticed something about her. She wasn't fat and she didn't jiggle, at all! Her booty shorts fit perfect and she looked like an athletic version of who I want to be when I reach my goal. The funniest part of working out with her is that she wears booty shorts while working out and I will be darned if hers don't every move, while mine roll up and go up my booty. Who creates these things??? I am really wanting to guess that it is a man!

Today marks my second day of the 3 week program. Workout wise, I am doing great but eating, that is a whole nother story; as they say. Everytime we are outside of post or away from our house we end up grabbing something fast. Yesterday it was Taco Hell and today it was McFattys. I really wish that I could go off post and find a place where there is healthy food to eat but that is very difficult here in Germany. German's love to eat and they love their creams, butters and sugars. As everyone knows, that adds up to FAT!!! This journey seems to be getting off to rough start but I swear to goodness that I will not weigh what I do today when New Years 2012 comes.

Taco Bell Hell!

Being in Germany is great for the sightseeing and beauty but for food, as an American, it can be murder. We went today to pick up our truck at the VPC (Vehicle Processing Center) in Schweinfurt. When we got there we didn't have any Euro, which you have to have to buy anything offpost. Not being able to eat off post meant that we had only to choose from the "Aafes" crap that they hand out on post. We got our vehicle and went to pick up a fuel ration card at the PX. It was around lunch time and we wanted to eat. The only choices we had were Pizza Hut, Taco Bell and Subway. I thought about Subway but when I got to the counter they said they were out of chicken and that is all I eat from there so that left me with only the other two to choose from. I ended up choosing Taco Bell and boy was that a HUGE mistake. See, I don't have a gallbladder and eating anything greasy makes me sick...in a bad way. I ended up eating some of the greasiest food I have eaten in a long time and I really paid the price for it. Not only did I intake a ton of fat but my body didn't react well to it. It made me feel sluggish and rundown. The fat and grease did nothing for me at all. I WON'T ever do that again. So, to wrap it up, my day went great in one aspect but in another, it was rather sucky!

Been a Few Days!

I haven't been on in a few days and haven't been able to post. The husband, my son and I were in Garmisch, Germany for a military ball for my husbands unit. We got back a few days ago but I have been dealing with a sick son and trying to get back on track after an "eventful" weekend. While we were in Bavaria I had a runin that left me feeling rundown and very low. To keep this short, a salon showed great discrimination against me just for being overweight!! I was floored and very sad at the whole situation. I am lucky to have the wonderful husband I do have. He made me feel like a beautiful, well loved wife and mother and told me the same. I thank God for the support that I do have on this journey and have found that I am eating somewhat better. I have cut out sodas and am working on cutting out all fried foods. I don't care for many veggies so I am going to have to go a different direction. Life is great right now and I am just looking towards the future and how much better it will get.

Wow, I am pooped!

Today has been a pretty good day. Food wise I went with my husband and son to Burger King and had a chicken sandwich meal (Not to happy about that) but at least we did walk all the way there. We walked a total of 5 miles and went all around post. I really enjoyed it, it felt invigorating and liberating. Exercise really gets your blood pumping and makes the "happy" feelings come out! I ended up burning over 1200 calories and walk a total of 5 miles. I ♥ EXERCISE!!!! Now we are sitting watching TCU whoop Wisconsin. Did I also say I ♥ FOOTBALL? I feel very lucky to be able to watch at least a few games over here in Germany. The National Championship game comes on in the morning and I will be right there watching AUBURN take a bite out of Oregon! GO TIGERS!!!!!

The First Day of my Determination to Make A Change

This is the first blog post I have written in a long time and I can honestly say I am scared to death to start this journey today. This is the first day of 2011 and a new year has begun!! I am a long way from most things that are familiar to me and at times feel very "out of place" in my own home. This year, for me, is filled with possibilites, realities and finding myself somewhere in all this "issue" I have created for myself! I have always been a chubby kid and when I became a teenager it just kept coming, the weight that is. When I became an adult the self-esteem issues had already done their damage and I felt hopeless so here I am at 313 lbs, the heaviest I have ever weighed in my life.

**Special Note: I suffer from Hypothyroidism and have been struggling with this massive amount of weight ever since.**

My main goal in creating this blog is so that I will have a way of keeping my very own journal on this uphill battle that I am about to engage in. It is going to be a battle of wills and hearts and I am finally ready to FIGHT for who I am and who I should be.

I WILL NOT LET ALL THIS "FAT" WIN!!!! READY, SET, LET'S RUMBLE!!!!!